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That's all I'm going to tell about. I could probably tell you what I did after I went home, and how I got sick and all, and what school I'm supposed to go to next fall, after I get out of here, but I don't feel like it. I really don't. That stuff doesn't interest me too much right now.

我要跟你谈的就是这些。我本来也可以告诉你我回家以后干了些什么，我怎么生了一场病，从这里出去以后下学期他们要我上什么学校，等等，可我实在没那心情。我的确没有。我这会儿对这一类玩艺儿一点也不感兴趣。

A lot of people, especially this one psychoanalyst guy they have here, keeps asking me if I'm going apply myself when I go back to school next September. It's such a stupid question, in my opinion.

许多人，特别是他们请来的那个精神分析家，不住地问我明年九月我回学校念书的时候是不是打算好好用功了。在我看来，这话问得真是傻透了。

I mean how do you know what you're going to do till you do it? The answer is, you don't. I think I am, but how do I know? I swear it's a stupid question.

我是说不到你开始做的时候，你怎么知道自己打算怎样做？回答是，你没法知道。我倒是打算用功来着，可我怎么知道呢？我可以发誓说这话问得很傻。

D.B. isn't as bad as the rest of them, but he keeps asking me a lot of questions, too. He drove over last Saturday with this English babe that's in this new picture he's writing. She was pretty affected, but very good-looking. Anyway, one time when she went to the ladies' room way the hell down in the other wing D.B. asked me what I thought about all this stuff I just finished telling you about. I didn't know what the hell to say. If you want to know the truth, I don't know what I think about it. I'm sorry I told so many people about it. About all I know is, I sort of miss everybody I told about. Even old Stradlater and Ackley, for instance. I think I even miss that goddam Maurice. It's funny. Don't ever tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody.

DB倒不象其他人那么混帐，可他也不住地问我许多问题。他上星期六开了汽车来看我，还带来一个英国姑娘，是主演他正在写的那个电影剧本的。她非常矫揉造作，可长的十分漂亮。嗯，有一会儿她出去到远在走廊另一头的女盥洗室去了，DB就问我对上述这一切有什么看法。我真他妈的不知怎么说好。老实说，我真不知道自己有什么看法。我很抱歉我竟跟这许多人谈起这事。我只知道我很想念我所谈到的每一个人。甚至老斯特拉德莱塔和阿克莱，比方说。我觉得我甚至也想念那个混帐毛里斯哩。说来好笑。你千万别跟任何人谈任何事情。你只要一谈起，就会想念起每一个人来。