“Miss Scarlett, effen we kain git de doctah w’en Miss Melly’s time come, doan you bodder. Ah kin manage. Ah knows all ‘bout birthin’. Ain’ mah ma a midwife? Ain’ she raise me ter be a midwife, too? Jes’ you leave it ter me.”
Scarlett breathed more easily knowing that experienced hands were near, but she nevertheless yearned to have the ordeal over and done with. Mad to be away from exploding shells, desperate to get home to the quiet of Tara, she prayed every night that the baby would arrive the next day, so she would be released from her promise and could leave Atlanta. Tara seemed so safe, so far away from all this misery.“等到媚兰小姐真的要生了,思嘉小姐,就算俺不能出去找医生,您也用不着烦恼。俺能对付。这接生的事,俺全知道,俺妈不就是个接生婆,她不是教会俺也能接生了?您就把这事交给俺好了。"
思嘉知道身边有个在行的人,便觉得轻松了些。不过她仍然盼望这场严峻的考验快些过去。她一心想离开这炮火连天之地,已惶惶不可终日;她要回塔拉去,更是迫不及待了。她每天晚上都在祈祷,要媚兰的孩子第二天就生下来。那样她就可以解脱自己的诺言,早日离开亚特兰大。塔拉在她心目中是多么安全,与这一切的苦难是多么不相干啊!Gradually, Scarlett drew courage from the brave faces of her friends and from the merciful adjustment which nature makes when what cannot be cured must be endured. To be sure, she still jumped at the sound of explosions but she did not run screaming to burrow her head under Melanie’s pillow. She could now gulp and say weakly: “That was close, wasn’t it?”
She was less frightened also because life had taken on the quality of a dream, a dream too terrible to be real. It wasn’t possible that she, Scarlett O’Hara, should be in such a predicament, with the danger of death about her every hour, every minute. It wasn’t possible that the quiet tenor of life could have changed so completely in so short a time.思嘉渐渐学会了从朋友们的脸上和自然的有效调节中汲取勇气,因为事情既然已无法挽救,也就只好忍受。说真的,她每次听到爆炸声仍不免要惊跳一下,但是她不再吓得尖叫着跑去把头钻在媚兰的枕头底下了。她现在已能抑制住自己并怯怯地说:“这发炮弹很近,是不是?"
她不再像以前那样害怕了,这里还有一个原因,即生活已染上一种梦幻般的色彩,而梦太可怕,不可能真实的。她思嘉.奥哈拉不可能沦于这样的苦境,这样每时每刻都有死亡的危险。生活本来应有的那种风平浪静的过程,不可能在这么短的时间里就彻底改变了。Quiet, drowsy afternoon siestas had ceased to be, for though the clamor of battle might lull from time to time, Peachtree Street was alive, and noisy at all hours, cannon and ambulances rumbling by, wounded stumbling in from the rifle pits, regiments hurrying past at double-quick, ordered from the ditches on one side of town to the defense of some hard-pressed earthworks on the other, and couriers dashing headlong down the street toward headquarters as though the fate of the Confederacy hung on them.
The hot nights brought a measure of quiet but it was a sinister quiet. When the night was still, it was too still—as though the tree frogs, katydids and sleepy mockingbirds were too frightened to raise their voices in the usual summer-night chorus. Now and again, the quiet was broken sharply by the crack-cracking of musket fire in the last line of defenses.以前那种安安静静、昏昏沉沉的午睡现在没有了,因为尽管作战的喧嚣声有时也平息一会,但桃树街仍整天嘈杂不堪,时而炮车和救护车隆隆驶过,伤兵从战壕里蹒跚而出,时而有的连队从市区一头的壕沟里奉命急忙跑到另一头去,防守那里受到严重的威胁的堡垒;时而通讯兵在大街上拼命奔跑赶到司令部去,仿佛南部联盟的命运就系在他们身上似的。
炎热的晚上有时会稍稍安静一些,但这种安静也是不正常的。如果说那是沉寂,就未免太沉寂了--仿佛雨蛙、蝈蝈儿和瞌睡的模仿鸟都吓得不敢在通常的夏夜合唱中出声了。这寂静有时也被最后防线中的哒哒的毛瑟枪声所打破。Always, faceless soldiers stood on the dark porch and from the darkness many different voices spoke to her. Sometimes a cultured voice came from the shadows: “Madam, my abject apologies for disturbing you, but could I have water for myself and my horse?” Sometimes it was the hard burring of a mountain voice, sometimes the odd nasals of the flat Wiregrass country to the far south, occasionally the lulling drawl of the Coast that caught at her heart, reminding her of Ellen’s voice.
“Missy, I got a pardner here who I wuz aimin’ ter git ter the horsepittle but looks like he ain’t goin’ ter last that fer. Kin you take him in?”常常,一些面貌模糊不清的士兵站在黑暗的走廊上,好几个人同时从黑暗中对她说话,有时那些黑影中会传来一个文雅的声音:“请原谅我打扰你了。太太,能不能让我和我的马喝点水呢?"有时是一个带粗重喉音的山民口音,有时是南方草原地区的鼻音;偶尔也有滨海地方那种平静而缓慢的声调,它使思嘉想起了母亲的声音。
“俺这里有伴儿,小姐,俺本想把他送到医院里去,可是他好像再也走不动了,你让他进来好吗?”“Madam, forgive my intrusion but—could I spend the night on your porch? I saw the roses and smelled the honeysuckle and it was so much like home that I was emboldened—”
No, these nights were not real! They were a nightmare and the men were part of that nightmare, men without bodies or faces, only tired voices speaking to her from the warm dark. Draw water, serve food, lay pillows on the front porch, bind wounds, hold the dirty heads of the dying. No, this could not be happening to her!“太太,请原谅我太冒失了,可是--能不能让我在走廊上过一夜?我看到这蔷薇花,闻到忍冬的香味,就好像到了家里,所以我大胆--"
不,这些夜晚不是真的!它们是一场恶梦,那些士兵是恶梦的组成部分,那些看不见身子或面貌的士兵,他们只是些疲倦的声音在炎热的夜雾里对她说话罢了。打水,给吃的,把枕头摆在走廊上,包扎伤口,扶着垂死者的头,不,所有这些都不可能是她真正做过的事!“Girls, I’m not going to see you all for a while,” he announced as he sat in Melanie’s bedroom, luxuriously wriggling his blistered feet in the tub of cold water Scarlett had set before him. “Our company is going out in the morning.”
“Where?” questioned Melanie frightened, clutching his arm.“Don’t put your hand on me,” said Uncle Henry irritably. “I’m crawling with lice. War would be a picnic if it wasn’t for lice and dysentery. Where’m I going? Well, I haven’t been told but I’ve got a good idea. We’re marching south, toward Jonesboro, in the morning, unless I’m greatly in error.”
“Oh, why toward Jonesboro?”“姑娘们,往后我怕会有很长一段时间不能来看你们了,"他在媚兰卧室里一坐下就这样宣布,一面把那双打了泡的脚放在思嘉端来的一盆凉水里,心情享受似地搓着。"我们团明天早晨就要开走了。”
“到哪儿去?"媚兰吃惊地问他,赶忙抓住他的胳臂。“别用手碰我,"亨利叔叔厌烦地说。"我身上满是虱子,战争要是没有虱子和痢疾,就简直成了野外旅行了。我到哪儿去?这个嘛,人家也没告诉我,不过我倒是猜得着的。我们要往南开,到琼斯博罗去,明天早晨走,除非我完全错了。”
“唔,干吗到琼斯博罗去呢?”“Oh, Uncle Henry, do you think they will?”
“Shucks, girls! No! How can they when I’m there?” Uncle Henry grinned at their frightened faces and then, becoming serious again: “It’s going to be a hard fight, girls. We’ve got to win it. You know, of course, that the Yankees have got all the railroads except the one to Macon, but that isn’t all they’ve got. Maybe you girls didn’t know it, but they’ve got every road, too, every wagon lane and bridle path, except the McDonough road, Atlanta’s in a bag and the strings of the bag are at Jonesboro. And if the Yankees can take the railroad there, they can pull up the strings and have us, just like a possum in a poke. So, we don’t aim to let them get that railroad. … I may be gone a while, girls. I just came in to tell you all good-by and to make sure Scarlett was still with you, Melly.”“唔,你看他们会抢得着吗?亨利叔叔?”
“呸,姑娘们!不会的!他们怎么可能呢?有我在那儿,"亨利叔叔朝那两张惊惶的脸孔咧嘴笑了笑,随即又严肃起来:“那将是一场恶战,姑娘们。我们不能不打赢它。你们知道,当然喽,北方佬已经占领所有的铁路,只剩下到梅肯去的那一条了,不过这还不是他们所得到的一切呢。也许你们还不清楚,他们的确还占领了每一条公路,每一条赶车和骑马的小道,除了克藺诺公路以外。亚特兰大好比在一个口袋里,这口袋的两根拉绳就在琼斯博罗。要是北方佬能占领那里的铁路,他们就会把绳子拉紧,把我们抓住,像抓袋子里的老鼠一样。所以我们不想让他们去占那条铁路……我可能要离开一个时候了,姑娘们。我这次来就是向你们大家告别的,并且看看思嘉是不是还跟你在一起,媚兰。”Uncle Henry wiped his wet feet on the rag rug and groaned as he drew on his tattered shoes.
“I got to be going,” he said. “I’ve got five miles to walk. Scarlett, you fix me up some kind of lunch to take. Anything you’ve got.”After he had kissed Melanie good-by, he went down to the kitchen where Scarlett was wrapping a corn pone and some apples in a napkin.
“Uncle Henry—is it—is it really so serious?”亨利叔叔把两只脚在地毯上擦干,然后哼哼着穿上那双破鞋。
“我要走了,"他说。"我还得走五英里路呢。思嘉,你给我弄点吃的东西带上。有什么带什么。"他吻了吻媚兰,便下楼到厨房去了,思嘉正在厨房里用餐巾包一个玉米卷子和几只苹果。
“亨利叔叔,难道--难道真的这样严重了吗?”“Do you think they’ll get to Tara?”
“Why—” began Uncle Henry, irritated at the feminine mind which thought only of personal things when broad issues were involved. Then, seeing her frightened, woebegone face, he softened.“Of course they won’t. Tara’s five miles from the railroad and it’s the railroad the Yankees want. You’ve got no more sense than a June bug, Missy.” He broke off abruptly. “I didn’t walk all this way here tonight just to tell you all good-by. I came to bring Melly some bad news, but when I got up to it I just couldn’t tell her. So I’m going to leave it to you to do.”
“Ashley isn’t—you haven’t heard anything—that he’s— dead?”“你看他们会打到塔拉去吗?”
“怎么--"亨利叔叔对于这种在大难当头时只顾个人私事的妇女的想法,感到很恼火。但接着看见她那惊慌苦恼的表情,也就心软了。“当然,他们不会到那里去。北方佬要的只是铁路。塔拉离铁路有五英里,不过小姐,你这个人的见识也实在太短了。"说到这里他突然停顿了一下。"今天晚上我跑这许多路到这里来,并不是要向你们告别。我是给媚兰送坏消息来的。可是我刚要开口又觉得不能告诉她,因此我才下楼对你说,让你去处理好了。”
“艾希礼不是--难道你听说--他已经死了?”Scarlett sat down suddenly, the half-wrapped lunch in her hand.
“I came to tell Melly—but I couldn’t. You must do it And give her these.”思嘉手里捧着那份还没包好的午餐,顿时颓然坐下。
“我是来告诉媚兰的--可是开不了口。你得替我办这件事,并且把这些给她。”“He was a brave man, Scarlett. Tell Melly that. Tell her to write it to his girls. And a good soldier for all his years. A shell got him. Came right down on him and his horse. Tore the horse’s— I shot the horse myself, poor creature. A fine little mare she was. You’d better write Mrs. Tarleton about that, too. She set a store on that mare. Wrap up my lunch, child. I must be going. There, dear, don’t take it so hard. What better way can an old man die than doing a young man’s work?”
“Oh, he shouldn’t have died! He shouldn’t have ever gone to the war. He should have lived and seen his grandchild grow up and died peacefully in bed. Oh, why did he go? He didn’t believe in secession and he hated the war and—”“他是个勇敢的人,思嘉。把这话告诉媚兰。叫她给他的几个女儿写封信去。他一生都是个好军人。一发炮弹打中了他,正落在他和他的马身上。马受了重伤--后来是我把它宰了,可怜的畜生。那是一匹很好小母马。你最好也写封信给塔尔顿太太,告诉她这件事。她非常珍爱这骑马。好了,亲爱的,不要太伤心了。对于一个老头子来说,只要做了一个青年人应当做的事,死了不也很值得吗?”
“啊,他根本就不该上前线去。他是不应该死的!他本来可以活下去看着他的孙子长大,然后平平安安地终老。啊,他干吗要去呀?他本来不主张分裂,憎恨战争,而且--”Scarlett kissed him and heard him go down the steps into the dark, heard the latch click on the front gate. She stood for a minute looking at the keepsakes in her hand. And then she went up the stairs to tell Melanie.
At the end of July came the unwelcome news, predicted by Uncle Henry, that the Yankees had swung around again toward Jonesboro. They had cut the railroad four miles below the town, but they had been beaten off by the Confederate cavalry; and the engineering corps, sweating in the broiling sun, had repaired the line.思嘉吻了吻他,听见他走下台阶到了黑暗的院子里,接着是前面大门上哗啦一响的门闩声。她凝望着手里的纪念物,在原地站了一会,然后跑上楼告诉媚兰去了。
到七月末,传来了不受欢迎的消息,那就是像亨利叔叔预言过的,北方佬又走了个弯子向琼斯博罗打去了。他们切断了城南四英里处的铁路线,但很快被联盟军骑兵击退;工程队在火热的太阳下赶忙修复了那条铁路。Gerald’s letter was so full of brag and bluster as to how the Yankees had been driven from the railroad that one would have thought he personally had accomplished the feat, single handed. He wrote for three pages about the gallantry of the troops and then, at the end of his letter, mentioned briefly that Carreen was ill. The typhoid, Mrs. O’Hara said it was. She was not very ill and Scarlett was not to worry about her, but on no condition must she come home now, even if the railroad should become safe. Mrs. O’Hara was very glad now that Scarlett and Wade had not come home when the siege began. Mrs. O’Hara said Scarlett must go to church and say some Rosaries for Carreen’s recovery.
Scarlett’s conscience smote her at this last, for it had been months since she had been to church. Once she would have thought this omission a mortal sin but, somehow, staying away from church did not seem so sinful now as it formerly had. But she obeyed her mother and going to her room gabbled a hasty Rosary. When she rose from her knees she did not feel as comforted as she had formerly felt after prayer. For some time she had felt that God was not watching out for her, the Confederates or the South, in spite of the millions of prayers ascending to Him daily.杰拉尔德的信中谈到北方佬怎样被联盟军从铁路上击退时充满了吹嘘和大话,仿佛是他自己单枪骑马立下了这赫赫战功似的。他用整整三页纸描写部队的英勇,末了才简单地提了一笔说卡琳生病了。据奥哈拉太太说是得了伤寒,但并不严重,所以思嘉不必为她担心,而且即使铁路已安全通车,思嘉现在也不用回家了。奥哈拉太太很高兴,觉得思嘉和韦德没有在围城开始时回去是完全正确的。她说思嘉必须到教堂里去作些祈祷,为了卡琳早日康复。
思嘉对母亲的这一吩咐感到十分内疚,因为她已经好几个月不上教堂去了。要是在以前,她会把这种疏忽看成莫大的罪过,可是现在,不进教堂就好像并不那么有罪了。不过她还是按照母亲的意愿走进自己房里,跪在地上匆匆念了一遍《玫瑰经》。她站起来时,倒并不觉得像过去念完经以后那样心里舒服一些。近来,她已感到上帝并不是在照顾她和南部联盟,尽管成百万的祈祷者每天都在祈求他的恩惠。Tonight when Atlanta was so quiet, she could close her eyes and imagine she was back in the rural stillness of Tara and that life was unchanged, unchanging. But she knew that life in the County would never be the same again. She thought of the four Tarletons, the red-haired twins and Tom and Boyd, and a passionate sadness caught at her throat. Why, either Stu or Brent might have been her husband. But now, when the war was over and she went back to Tara to live, she would never again hear their wild halloos as they dashed up the avenue of cedars. And Raiford Calvert, who danced so divinely, would never again choose her to be his partner. And the Munroe boys and little Joe Fontaine and—
“Oh, Ashley!” she sobbed, dropping her head into her hands. “I’ll never get used to you being gone!”今晚亚特兰大这样安静,她能闭上眼睛想象自己回到了塔拉静穆的田野,生活一点也没有改变,看来也不会改变。不过她知道那个地区的生活是决不会跟从前一样的。她想起塔尔顿家四兄弟,那对红头发的孪生兄弟和汤姆与博伊德,不由得一阵悲怆把她的喉咙给哽住了。怎么,斯图或布伦特不是有一个可能做她的丈夫吗?可如今,当战争过后她回到塔拉去住时,却再也听不见他们在林荫道上一路跑来时那狂热的呼唤声了。还有雷福德.卡尔弗特那个最会跳舞的小伙子,他也再不会挑选她当舞伴了。至于芒罗家的一群和小个子乔.方丹,以及--
“啊,艾希礼!"她两手捧着头啜泣起来。"我永远也无法承认你已经没了啊!”“To keep Melanie company. You see, she—well, she can’t refugee just now.”
“Thunderation,” he said, and in the lamplight she saw that he was frowning. “You don’t mean to tell me Mrs. Wilkes is still here? I never heard of such idiocy. It’s quite dangerous for her in her condition.”Scarlett was silent, embarrassed, for Melanie’s condition was not a subject she could discuss with a man. She was embarrassed, too, that Rhett should know it was dangerous for Melanie. Such knowledge sat ill upon a bachelor.
“It’s quite ungallant of you not to think that I might get hurt too,” she said tartly.“给媚兰作伴嘛,你想,她--嗯,她眼下没法去逃难呢。”
“嘿,"她从灯光底下看见他皱起眉头。"你这是告诉我威尔克斯太太不在这里?我可从来没听说有这种傻事。在她目前的情况下,留在这里可相当危险啊!"思嘉觉得很不好意思,不作声,因为关于媚兰的处境,她是不能跟一个男人谈论的。使她感到难为情的还有,瑞德居然知道那对媚兰是危险的事呢。一个单身汉会懂得这种事情,总有点不体面啊!
“你一点不考虑我也可能出事,这未免太不仗义了吧,"她酸溜溜地说。“I’d back you against the Yankees any day.”
“I’m not sure that that’s a compliment,” she said uncertainly.“It isn’t,” he answered. “When will you stop looking for compliments in men’s lightest utterances?”
“When I’m on my deathbed,” she replied and smiled, thinking that there would always be men to compliment her, even if Rhett never did.“我会随时保护你不受北方佬欺侮的。”
“我还不清楚这算不算一句恭维话。"她用怀疑的口气说。“当然不算,"他答道:“你什么时候才不到男人们最随便的表白中去寻找什么恭维呢?”
“等我躺到了灵床上才行,"她微笑着回答,心想常常有男人来恭维她呢,即使瑞德从没有这样做过。He opened his cigar case, extracted a black cigar and held it to his nose for a moment. A match flared, he leaned back against a post and, clasping his hands about his knees, smoked a while in silence. Scarlett resumed her rocking and the still darkness of the warm night closed about them. The mockingbird, which nested in the tangle of roses and honeysuckle, roused from slumber and gave one timid, liquid note. Then, as if thinking better of the matter, it was silent again.
From the shadow of the porch, Rhett suddenly laughed, a low, soft laugh.他打开他的烟盒,拈出一支黑雪茄放到鼻子前闻了闻,然后划亮一根火柴。他靠在一根柱子上,双手抱膝,静静地吸烟。思嘉又在躺椅里摇晃起来。黑暗的夜雾浓密而温暖。他们周围一片静悄悄,平息在蔷薇和忍冬密丛中的模仿鸟从睡梦中醒过来,小心而流利地唱了几声。接着,仿佛经过一番审慎的思考,它又沉默了。
这时,瑞德突然从走廊的黑影中笑出声来,低声而柔和地笑着。“I see nothing strange about it,” she answered uncomfortably, immediately on the alert.
“No? But then you lack the impersonal viewpoint. My impression has been for some time past that you could hardly endure Mrs. Wilkes. You think her silly and stupid and her patriotic notions bore you. You seldom pass by the opportunity to slip in some belittling remark about her, so naturally it seems strange to me that you should elect to do the unselfish thing and stay here with her during this shelling. Now, just why did you do it?”“我倒看不出有什么奇怪的地方,"思嘉不安地回答,立即引起了警惕。
“没有吗?这样一来你就不易客观地看问题了。过去一些时候以来,我的印象是你很难容忍威尔克斯太太。你认为她又傻气又愚蠢,同时她的爱国思想也使你感到厌烦。你很少放过机会不趁势说两句挖苦话,因此我自然会觉得十分奇怪,怎么你居然会做这种无私的事,会在这炮声震天的形势下陪着她留下来了。你究竟为什么这样做啊?说吧。”“You mean because she’s Ashley’s Wilkes’ widow.”
Scarlett rose quickly, struggling with her anger.“I was almost on the point of forgiving you for your former boorish conduct but now I shan’t do it. I wouldn’t have ever let you come upon this porch at all, if I hadn’t been feeling so blue and—”
“Sit down and smooth your ruffled fur,” he said, and his voice changed. He reached up and taking her hand pulled her back into her chair. “Why are you blue?”“你是说因为她是艾希礼的遗孀吧。”
思嘉连忙站起来,极力抑制住心中的怒火。“你上次对我那样放肆,我本来已准备饶恕你,可现在再也不行了。今天要不是我正感十分苦闷,我本来是决不会让你踏上这走廊来的。而且--”
“请坐下来,消消气吧,"他的口气有点变了。他伸出手拉着她的胳臂,把她拖回椅子上。"你为什么苦闷呢?”“Well, don’t cry about it,” he said, but his voice was kinder. “You are much safer here in Atlanta even if the Yankees do come than you’d be at Tara. The Yankees won’t hurt you and typhoid would.”
“The Yankees wouldn’t hurt me! How can you say such a lie?”“My dear girl, the Yankees aren’t fiends. They haven’t horns and hoofs, as you seem to think. They are pretty much like Southerners—except with worse manners, of course, and terrible accents.”
“Why, the Yankees would—”“嗯,不过你也别因此就哭呀,"他说,口气更温和了些。“你如今在亚特兰大,即使北方佬来了,也比在塔拉要安全些。北方佬不会伤害你的,但伤寒病却会。”
“你怎么能说这种仆人的话呢?北方佬不会伤害我?”“我亲爱的姑娘,北方佬不是魔鬼嘛。他们并不如你所想像的,头上没有长角,脚上没有长蹄子。他们和南方人一样漂亮--当然嘛,礼貌上要差一点,口音也很难听。”
“哼,北方佬会--”“If you are going to talk vilely I shall go into the house,” she cried, grateful that the shadows hid her crimson face.
“Be frank. Wasn’t that what you were thinking?”“Oh, certainly not!”
“Oh, but it was! No use getting mad at me for reading your thoughts. That’s what all our delicately nurtured and pure-minded Southern ladies think. They have it on their minds constantly. I’ll wager even dowagers like Mrs. Merriwether ...”“要是你再说这种粗话,我就要进屋了,"她厉声喝道,同时庆幸周围的阴影把她那羞红的脸遮住了。
“老实说吧,你心里是不是这样想的?”“啊,当然不是!”
“可实际是这样嘛!不要因为我猜透了你的心思就生气呀。那都是我们这些娇生惯养和正经的南方太太们的想法呢。她们老担心这件事。我可以打赌,甚至像梅里韦瑟太太这样有钱的寡妇……”“Speaking of such matters,” he continued, “have you a protector or chaperon in the house? The admirable Mrs. Merriwether or Mrs. Meade? They always look at me as if they knew I was here for no good purpose.”
“Mrs. Meade usually comes over at night,” answered Scarlett, glad to change the subject “But she couldn’t tonight Phil, her boy, is home.”“我倒要问问你,谈到这种事情,"他继续说,"你们身边有没有人保卫或监护呢?是令人钦佩的梅里韦瑟太太,还是米德太太?仿佛知道我到这里来是不怀好意似的。她们一直盯着我。”
“米德太太晚上常过来看看,"思嘉答道,很高兴能换个话题了。"不过,她今天晚上不能来。她儿子费尔回家了。”Something in his voice made her heart beat pleasantly faster and she felt her face flush. She had heard that note in men’s voices often enough to know that it presaged a declaration of love. Oh, what fun! If he would just say he loved her, how she would torment him and get even with him for all the sarcastic remarks he had flung at her these past three years. She would lead him a chase that would make up for even that awful humiliation of the day he witnessed her slapping Ashley. And then she’d tell him sweetly she could only be a sister to him and retire with the full honors of war. She laughed nervously in pleasant anticipation.
“Don’t giggle,” he said, and taking her hand, he turned it over and pressed his lips into the palm. Something vital, electric, leaped from him to her at the touch of his warm mouth, something that caressed her whole body thrillingly. His lips traveled to her wrist and she knew he must feel the leap of her pulse as her heart quickened and she tried to draw back her hand. She had not bargained on this—this treacherous warm tide of feeling that made her want to run her hands through his hair, to feel his lips upon her mouth.他声音里有一点东西使她感到愉快,心跳得快起来,同时也感到自己的脸发热了。她听见了她曾多次从男人声音中听到过的那种预示要表白爱情的口气。唔,真有趣!现在!只要他说出他爱她三个字,她就要狠狠地折磨和报复他一下,把过去三年他对她的讽刺挖苦统统还给他。她要引诱他来一次苦苦追求,最好把他眼见她打艾希礼耳光那一天她所受到的羞辱也洗刷掉。然后她要温柔地告诉他她只能像个妹妹那样做他的朋友,并且以大获全胜来结束这场较量。她预想到这一美妙的结局时,不觉神经质地笑起来了。
“别笑呀,"他说,一面拉着她的手,把它翻过来,把自己的嘴唇紧压在手心里。这时有一股电般流的强大热流通过他温暖的亲吻注入到她身上,震颤地爱抚着她的周身。接着他的嘴唇从她手心慢慢地向手腕上移动,她想他一定感到她脉搏的跳动了,因为她的心已跳得更快,她便试着把手抽回来。这种不怎么可靠的热烈的感觉曾使他想去抚摸他的头发,但是并不指望他会来吻她的嘴。He laughed softly.
“Don’t pull away! I won’t hurt you!”“Hurt me? I’m not afraid of you, Rhett Butler, or of any man in shoe leather!” she cried, furious that her voice shook as well as her hands.
“An admirable sentiment, but do lower your voice. Mrs. Wilkes might hear you. And pray compose yourself.” He sounded as though delighted at her flurry.他轻轻地笑了。
“我又不会伤害你。不要把手缩回去嘛!”“伤害我?我可并不怕你,瑞德.巴特勒,也不怕任何男人!"她大声嚷道,并为自己的声音也像手那样颤抖而恼怒。
“这是一种值得尊敬的情绪,不过还是把声音放低些吧。威尔克斯太太会听见的。求你放冷静点。"他的话听起来好像为她的激动而感到高兴。That was more like, what she was expecting.
“Well, sometimes,” she answered cautiously. “When you aren’t acting like a varmint.”He laughed again and held the palm of her hand against his hard cheek.
“I think you like me because I am a varmint. You’ve known so few dyed-in-the-wool varmints in your sheltered life that my very difference holds a quaint charm for you.”这话才比较符合她的心意。
“唔,有时候是这样,"她谨慎地答道。"那是你的所作所为不那么像个恶棍的时候。"他又笑起来,把她的手心贴在他结实的面颊上。
“我想,正因为我是个恶棍,你才爱我呢。你这人很少出门,很少见过真正的恶棍,所以我的这个特点对你最有吸引力。"“That’s not true! I like nice men—men you can depend on to always be gentlemanly.”
“You mean men you can always bully. It’s merely a matter of definition. But no matter.”He kissed her palm again, and again the skin on the back of her neck crawled excitingly.
“But you do like me. Could you ever love me, Scarlett?”“那才不是呢!我喜欢好人--喜欢那种你信得过的上等人。”
“你的意思是那些你能经常欺骗的人喽,可是不要紧,这只是说法不同罢了。"他又吻了吻她的手心,这时她的后颈上又感到痒痒地难以忍受。
“不过你就是喜欢我。思嘉你会不会有一天爱上我呢?”“And I have no intention of mending them. So you could not love me? That is as I hoped. For while I like you immensely, I do not love you and it would be tragic indeed for you to suffer twice from unrequited love, wouldn’t it, dear? May I call you ‘dear,’ Mrs. Hamilton? I shall call you ‘dear’ whether you like it or not, so no matter, but the proprieties must be observed.”
“You don’t love me?”“No, indeed. Did you hope that I did?”
“Don’t be so presumptuous!”“可是我不想改变。因此你就不会爱我了?这倒是我所希望的事。我却并不爱你。因为尽管我非常喜欢你,而且,如果你再一次在自己的爱情中得不到报偿,那才真正可悲了。亲爱的,你说是这样吗?我可不可以称你'亲爱的'呢,汉密尔顿太太?不管你高兴不高兴,我反正要称你'亲爱的';这没关系,只是还得讲礼貌才好。”
“那么你不爱我了?”“不,真的。难道你希望我爱你?”
“你别这样痴心妄想吧!”Peasant! Why, he was insulting her! She began to splutter wordlessly.
“Don’t interrupt,” he begged, squeezing her hand. “I like you because I have those same qualities in me and like begets liking. I realize you still cherish the memory of the godlike and wooden-headed Mr. Wilkes, who’s probably been in his grave these six months. But there must be room in your heart for me too. Scarlett, do stop wriggling! I am making you a declaration. I have wanted you since the first time I laid eyes on you, in the hall of Twelve Oaks, when you were bewitching poor Charlie Hamilton. I want you more than I have ever wanted any woman—and I’ve waited longer for you than I’ve ever waited for any woman.”农民!怎么,他这简直是在侮辱她嘛!于是她激怒得说不出话来了。
“请不要打断我,"他把她的手紧紧地捏了一下。"我喜欢你,还因为我身上也有同样的品性,所谓同病相怜嘛。我发现你还在惦念那位神圣而愚笨的威尔克斯先生,尽管他可能躺进坟墓已经半年了。不过你心里一定也还有我的地位。思嘉,你不要回避了!我正在向你表白埃.自从我在'十二橡树'村的大厅里第一眼看见你以后,我就需要你了,那时你正在迷惑可怜的查理.汉密尔顿呢。我想要你的心情,比曾经想要哪个女人的心理都更迫切--而且等待你的时间比街道等待任何其他女人的时间都更长呢。"“Are you asking me to marry you?”
He dropped her hand and laughed so loudly she shrank back in her chair.“Good Lord, no! Didn’t I tell you I wasn’t a marrying man?”
“But—but—what—”“你这是要我跟你结婚吗?”
他把她的手放下,同时高声地笑起来,笑得她直往椅子靠背上退缩。“不是!我的天,我没有告诉过你我这个人是不结婚的吗?”
“可是--可是--什么--"“Dear,” he said quietly, “I am complimenting your intelligence by asking you to be my mistress without having first seduced you.”
Mistress!Her mind shouted the word, shouted that she had been vilely insulted. But in that first startled moment she did not feel insulted. She only felt a furious surge of indignation that he should think her such a fool. He must think her a fool if he offered her a proposition like that, instead of the proposal of matrimony she had been expecting. Rage, punctured vanity and disappointment threw her mind into a turmoil and, before she even thought of the high moral grounds on which she should upbraid him, she blurted out the first words which came to her lips—
“Mistress! What would I get out of that except a passel of brats?”“亲爱的,"他平静地说,"我尊重你是个有见识的人,所以没有首先引诱你,只要求你做我的情妇。
"情妇!她心里叫喊着这个词,叫喊自己被这样卑鄙地侮辱了。不过她在吃惊的最初一刹那并没有感觉到这种侮辱。她只觉得心头一阵怒火,怎么瑞德竟把她看成了这样一个傻瓜。如果他对她只提出这样一个要求,而不是如她所期待的正式结婚,那当然是把她当傻瓜看待了。于是愤怒、屈辱和失望之情把她的心搅得一团糟,她已经来不及从道德立场上想出更好的理由去谴责他,便让来到嘴边的话冲口而出--
“情妇!那除了一群乳臭小儿之外,我还能得到什么呢?"“That’s why I like you! You are the only frank woman I know, the only woman who looks on the practical side of matters without beclouding the issue with mouthings about sin and morality. Any other woman would have swooned first and then shown me the door.”
Scarlett leaped to her feet, her face red with shame. How could she have said such a thing! How could she, Ellen’s daughter, with her upbringing, have sat there and listened to such debasing words and then made such a shameless reply? She should have screamed. She should have fainted. She should have turned coldly away in silence and swept from the porch. Too late now!“正因为这样我才喜欢你!你是我认识的唯一坦白的女人,一个只从实际出发看问题而不多谈什么道德来掩饰问题实质的女人。要是别的女人,她就会首先晕倒,然后叫我滚蛋了。"
思嘉羞得满脸通红,猛地站起。她怎么居然说出这种话来呀!怎么她,爱伦一手教养大的女儿,居然会坐在这里听他说了那种下流的话,然后还作出这样无耻的回答呀!她本来应当吓得尖叫起来的。她本来应当晕倒的。她本来应当一声不响冷冷地扭过头去,然后愤愤地离开走廊回到屋里去的。可现在已经晚了!He picked up his hat and bowed and she saw in the light of the lamp that his teeth were showing in a smile beneath his mustache. He was not ashamed, he was amused at what she had said, and he was watching her with alert interest.
Oh, he was detestable! She swung round on her heel and marched into the house. She grabbed hold of the door to shut it with a bang, but the hook which held it open was too heavy for her. She struggled with it, panting.“May I help you?” he asked.
Feeling that she would burst a blood vessel if she stayed another minute, she stormed up the stairs. And as she reached the upper floor, she heard him obligingly slam the door for her.他拿起帽子,鞠了一躬,这时她从灯光下窥见,他那髭须底下的两排牙齿间流露出一丝微笑。他一点也不害臊,还觉得她的话很有趣,并且怀着浓厚的兴味看着她呢。
啊,他真是讨厌极了!她迅速转过身来,大步走进屋里。她一手抓住门把,很想砰地一声把门关上,可是让门开着的挂钩太重了,她怎么使劲也拔不动,直弄得气喘吁吁。“让我帮你一下忙行吗?”他问。
她气得身上的血管都要破裂了,她连一分一秒也待不下去,于是便一阵风似地奔上楼去。跑到二楼时,她才听到他似乎出于好意替她把门带上了。